RAWR

i've been trying to catch up with my work these few days.. i can't help but feel that im actually lagging behind.

i don't really like it when some people insult you behind your back and then it comes one round and lands in my face through other people.
i'm trying my besssssssttttttt to be a nicer person by not snapping back at people right away. and everytime i think of what they've done to me, i just think, " i shouldn't do anything to them anymore! im trying this new thing where i don't really react badly to whatever they say." and i honestly think right(even though i don't show it) that if someone is realy sincere on trying to solve the problem.. i think i should give them a chance or something. but that just means i'll have to put up with whatever shit i don't like about them. well that's just life i guess.
Even though sometimes there are like a gazillion stuff i hate about the person, i guess i should try to be nice to whoever that person is. haha okay enough about that.

drats. i gotta go do my homework.

presentation night. it's over! well after today, there's still the Festival of arts concert and the national day thing, but PRELIMS are coming. then soon later, O lvls are starting. i really have no more time to waste anymore. i gotta start studying. i only have a few weeks left to prelims!

okay, well basically school's been very slack even though prelims are coming.

hmph.

i can't stand going for band anymore. it's full of.. pretentious people, who are afraid of being who they are, afraid of offending others, afraid of making enemies and therefore becoming hypocritical and none of them mean what they say. i've actually seen enough.

honestly, these people have received what they deserved. some might think that they should deserve more, but i think that, arrogant, egoistic bastards should have their downfalls extended. and i don't think anyone should show any mercy to these people who have once flaunted like they own the world, diminishing everyone else.

it's not that im trying to say anything about anyone, but im talking about this in general. no specific accusations whatsoever.

im just pissed at all these kind of people. especially those who think they've done NOTHING WRONG. they just piss me off further. i really think these people should all find a well and jump into it and get stuck inside there forever.

yes not everyone's perfect, yeah but so what? at least keep your " not-so-perfectness" to yourself. you don't go spreading it to everyone. and i am really pissed at these kind of people.

forgive and forget. HOW CAN ANYONE DO THAT WHEN THE SAME THING KEEPS HAPPENING OVER AND OVER AGAIN. yes then someone will say, oh you're expected to forgive and forget no matter how many times it happens. whatever.

i need to sleep! ahhhh, i haven't been able to catch much sleep these days. haha, i don't think having like 5-6 hours of sleep is enough. =\. i need at least 8 or moreeee.
argh. yknow school's basically a waste of time , cos everyday i don't seem to be learning anything new. rather i don't feel like learning. i don't think i'll ever be as hardworking as to do like my whole tys like some people who do it in class like the freaking o levels the following week or something.
i just can't be bothered to go study. i don't know why. it's just unexplainable.