RAWR

cny hols! haha finally a break. somehow this year im not really looking foward to cny. don't know why. oh well. managed to pick up the fall out boy cd just now. i didn't even know they had a new album! =p hols don't come free >.< i've got quite abit of homework to finish before the hols end. the worst thing is that i've got to go back for band on wednesday. i know i might sound very crappy and stuff, but SO WHAT. COME SHOOT ME. lol oh wait, i think orat might.

By the way, the orat thing has been spreading like fire. it's like almost the whole level knoi thiws about it. haha and it all started with the ib people spreading it. i wonder how orats gonna react to it. he probably knows already anyway. the comments people make about it are hilarious though perhaps you prayed/ wished for the wrong thing. hahaha

i think going against the whole world isn't your thing. you'd better give up! haha before its too late. oh wait, even if you try to solve it, it won't cause you suck! i think your only friend is hesitating whether to cling on to you, because he's probably afraid of what people will say. even if he is not afraid. IT DOESN"T MATTER. cause we don't care. i think the people who started the rumours would. suck on that. (:

okay i don't know why im wasting my time typing all this shit, probably cause i have nothing to type. yeah, that's probably the reason.

ahhh im studying my chem last minute now. i couldn't concentrate the whole day =p.
school's really boring out. can't take it. oh well.

okay the o level results came out and it turned out all my seniors didn't do well. yknow, it kinda scares me now. its not that im all that hardworking and stuff. i REALLY wished i was hardworking , but the truth is , im not. and i have to be if i want to do well in my O's. It's like freaking at the end of the year. yeah sure secondary school might have been a breeze. -.- yknow i always get those remarks, yeah im like so free. im doing everything else except sit down with a textbook and be like one of those geeks and study like every single day. you know to some point. I WISH I WERE. hahaha

well, if i can't even finish reading a single book.(not textbooks), i mean like normal books. how the hell do you expect me to sit down with the biology or geography book and study. In case you're wondering, i've been studying last minute every single exam in secondary school. yknow when its two months away from exams, i see people studying geog and biology like everyday. then when its 1 month, they go to school and discuss it everyday druing the breaks and stuff. it really gets to me somehow. and me? honestly, i rarely got a pass for bio cause i didn't study. i just realised it, like yesterday.

okay aside from that. sorry for those out there who are emotionally unstable.(haha) but i really cannot tolerate IT(im talking about someone). okay so can you please stop being a BITCH! ITS DAMN IRRITATING. i know it might not really concern me much, but if one of these days, if i go up to you and confront you. don't regret it. one day,you'll see.

Life's scary. thats not just a perception on my part

survived school today. i didn't sleep in class today! i did feel tired but yeah, tried my best to keep awake and i did! haha. and today's the only day when there's not much homework. phew, usually there'd be like 2 to 3 pieces of assignments and stuff.

i'm considering whether i should drop bio. its not a very difficult subject in my perspective, but it takes up a lot of time. especially when the exams or tests come. i think i'll hang on to it first. then when the tests come out i'll decide. hmph

hey! haha i just watched one tree hill. its so emo! and uhm, i guess life is pretty short and stuff. i mean, there's like lots of stuff that we do, and we're kinda insensitive sometimes. However, i still stick to my point. People don't just hate others for no rhyme or reason. cos to me, the person must have definitely done something to cause it. so yeah. you might try to run away from who you are. you can try all ways to try and solve it. sorry, somethings can't be repaired once broken.

okay i have something to say. something that not everyone would actually agreee with me. you know some annoying person have been pretty much been a (insert vulgar , cursed words here)for like i last knew. some people might think im overboard, how should i put it, hmph. well, look, some people will never change okay. so no matter how many CHANCES you give them, they'll still screw it up one day. it's probably gotta do with their upbringing and stuff. i mean so what. I have to change for that person? come on, please don't be naive people. im not trying to say don't "forgive and forget". its just that, whats the point of being angry and pissed and feel like you've been backstabbed like fucking over and over again. it sure doesn't feel nice. let alone multiple times.

Another point would be that, there are different kinds of people in this world. the weaker , FRAGILE ones. the normal ones. and the strong ones. If this person belongs to like the weaker category, i personally believe that he should of all people know SELF AWARENESS. if you know you are weak. please don't try to be an ass. cause people will wallop you. and by then, don't go crying and " what have i done to you? " and then cry cry cry, then oh look i win the battle. -.-

If you belong to that 'weak' category from what i know, dont go around starting trouble and pretend not to know what you did wrong. oh yeah, the backstabbing part. haha if you wanna backstab right. at least get people who are your like REAL FRIENDS. wait i forgot, you don't have a friend. cause they won't tell anyone about what you said. then it comes back to my point. that wouldn't be backstabbing anymore. its come to a point, that even if the whole world is on the other side, i will stand by my point and i will not give up on what i believe, unless its really obvious that im on the wrong part. Hello, i don't think other people would be so nice to you. in other countries, you'd probably be dead by now. im sorry if i sound terribly unreasonable, because i don't. thats all i guess.

anyway on the brighter side, tmrw's friday! the weekends. even though theres always a pile of homework for me to complete during the weekend. its still much better than the weekdays. =p